Well, as odd as it may seem from my pictures on Instagram today, this is actually the LEAST we've eaten on Thanksgiving in the last four years: there are, for the first time, left overs for a complete dinner tomorrow night. We made lunch and breakfast one meal, had only two servings of it, and had only 1 piece of pie.
Ending calories are 2910, with 30% of calories from fat, which is actually a pretty good day with all things considered (last year I ate close to 6800 calories).
I've started to do some tracking as of late of how much I'm eating, try to get my calories under 3000 each day (one step at a time--I have been averaging around 4400) which has been a bit of a challenge, because I'm gaining weight like CRAZY as of late, and my body is starting to show those old signs of wear and misuse in so many ways. I'm not very successful at staying below 3000 each day (I should really be below 2100), mind you, mostly because I find myself binge eating as soon as I'm done teaching, or in-between teaching, and because I have NO exercise other than the 30 minutes I get each day walking between campuses, but I have begun, at least thinking about the process and figuring out how to get my feet secure again with a healthier lifestyle.
I had it in my mind, back in early October, that I would start anew with the New Year, especially since I had Halloween, Thanksgiving, visiting my grandparents (Dec 8-10), pre-Christmas vacation (December 21-23--my present to Laura), and Christmas itself (Dec 24 and 25th) which will be real blocks in developing any momentum. Still, I figure that in-between those days and times I can develop a little momentum, gain some changes and insights into how bad things are, and that in the next 28 days, there are 21 that I can be really accountable for, maybe even use my break to figure out some way to burn some calories as well.
I think my first stop is to see what changes I can make (for example, over the last two weeks I have replaced white pasta with whole wheat pasta, and that has definitely made a big difference in how I feel after I eat) now, try to figure out or remember what once worked so well for me, begin to make the lifestyle changes that I need to make, and then be prepared to hit the ground running with no excuses (except my birthday on January 13th) for the new year and beyond.
Of course, being the "all or nothing" sort that I am, for me to make this work it has to get the bulk of my attention for the next year, which means some serious changes to my lifestyle, social style, and pushing past the addiction stages as they come up. Making sure I am happy with whatever calorie counting system that I choose, maybe even getting in a few food addiction counseling sessions, and developing a workout routine once the addiction gets under control, will be of major focus.
Sucks that I have to start all over again, yet again, but it is what I have made it to be, and I think, perhaps, this has just been the universe's way of reminding me how healthy and happy I am when I am focused on making my life about health and exercise over and above all else.
Oh yeah: Hey look! I have a new Blog again!
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