Serious withdrawal issues overnight, this morning.
Got up to have an Immunity Booster thingy, make some coffee, and heat up the left overs from yesterday as my breakfast.
My usual Sunday routine was to go out for Vegan pancakes, sausage, BBQ scramble, potatoes, toast, sometimes donuts or pie found (everything Vegan of course) their way into that mix, so looking at 300 calories of leftover potatoes and a banana, not so sure what to do with my body, with what my body does today, is already a struggle.
The lack of calories feels like my immune system is compromised. I just want to go out, eat, wander around Boston, eat more, come home, eat again, and crash out.
I forgot how to live without food as the thing holding me up for support. The toughest part is that, once this demon gets exposed for the bogart it is, I will then have to face the wounds that started all of this garbage, and that's something I may need more support for than doing it all alone.
Everything about this SUCKS! Nine days until I am in New Haven with my grandparents for three days and will have to reset this process all over again when I return, then again after Christmas.
I feel like I need a hot Yoga classroom, or a ticket to India, more than ever before....or maybe just a noose will do.
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